Well, I made it through phase two…now onto phases three and four of the thesis monster. It looks like there is one pretty obvious grammatical error in my mag thus far, but nothing so horrendous that I’ll loose too much sleep over. I hope.

Ivan, technological guru and genius friend of mine, saved my white girl ghetto booty yet again with all his technical know-how and a saint like patience by helping put the actual thing together in programs I’ve never used before. InDesign…I WILL learn you and then I’ll smack you around like you’re my bitch! Ya HEAR ME?! Ha. InDesign was smacking ME around like I’m it’s little bitch. DAMN!

Photoshop was also having it’s way with me. DAMN ADOBE AND THEIR AWESOME PROGRAMS! They are so wonderful and powerful if you know the language to unlock their goodness, but if you don’t speak the language, don’t know the symbols or what you want to do is actually called, then it’s a real pain in the ass to work in their programs. I know, I’ve been struggling with them for weeks now.

I do know them better now, but not well enough, not at all. This summer I hope to learn more however. I like the idea of what I’m working on and want to continue it, but definitely need to be able to do this sort of thing without the help of my dearest friend. He needs a BREAK from MY SCHOOLING! lol. Sad…but true.

In fact, ALL of my friends and family need a break from my schooling. It’s amazing I still HAVE friends to be honest. I mean, I have lost some, that’s become increadibly obvious lately, but those that were true to begin with (or at least who cared about me as much as I cared about them) are still in my life and happily waiting for me to be done with the madness that is my MFA and to get back to living again.

Ah…living. Watching tv without guilt. Going out on a Thursday night. Hanging out with my friends. Spending time with that someone special. Spending time with my little babies! So far in this process I’ve definitely lost two solid friends I can think of immediately and I’ve successfully killed four plants I had for over 6 years each. [sarcastically claps to self] Well Done Devin. *sigh*

But I will be emerging from this program and experience with some incredible gifts and knowledge. I’m so much stronger now than I was before all of this happened. I appreciate that.

But right now, more than anything, I appreciate those friends of mine who have really stuck by me through this process. Those people who were there for me, not just in my times of need, but in times of joy and also in times of their need. I have a long list of people I need to thank, but for starters I have to list a few people who have been hearing me bitch, cry, moan, complain, doubt, suffer, rejoice and dream the most. Of course I’m going to mention Ivan. He’s been up with me these past several nights (weeks) putting in full days at work, freelancing on top of that and then helping me into the wee hours of the morning on the actual set up of my project. Amanda is someone I work with and someone I just really enjoy the company of. She reminds me of my older sister for so many reasons which totally rocks. She’s also listened to me stress like few others, and despite that has remained enthusiastic and incredibly helpful in the production of my magazine. She and Ehren have both been doing heavy editing on my work which has saved me from myself countless times. THANK GOD FOR SMART EDITORS!!! Haley is also someone who needs to be mentioned. No matter how much was on her plate, how much she was doing, even if she couldn’t actually help me with something, she always responded to my emails, texts and phone calls. That’s kind of a big deal as I’ve learned these past few months that it’s a huge pet peeve of mine when people do even respond with a “hey, I got your message, sorry I can’t write more…” Just urks the hell out of me. If I ever do that to you, please let me know. Remind me. Say, “Hey bitch, why didn’t you respond within a couple hours of receiving my message?!”

Finally I gotta mention two more peeps…my sister Terra who has been so unbelievably supportive it makes me tear up. Whenever I was flipping out about not being good enough to smart enough or if I would graduate or not, she would jump right in with “YOU ARE THE BEST DEVIAN!” and you know what? I really think she means it. And that has meant sooooo much to me. Because when I can’t believe it myself, it saves me from total doubt when those most important to me believe it for me. And last but not least would be my special someone. Man oh man. The madness he’s been put through with me. I know he hasn’t bolted for the door simply because he’s known me for years and obviously that’s long enough to know that my recent behavoir is not my norm. But seriously….how many times have I just gotten silly about the dumbest possible things? Too many lately. I have someone who supports me in any way he can and does so without complaints. He believes in me even if he doesn’t fully understand what I’m trying to do or trying to say. He’s honest. He’s committed. He makes me laugh and when I need it, he gives me the best hugs.

If you know me, you know I’m not little miss hugs. But from certain people, a hug is just what I need. Thanks baby…you’ve been awesome throughout this process. I know you can’t wait for me to be done with this program and have my life get back to “normal” so you can have your “normal” less stressed out and overly goofy girlfriend back. Soooooon right? In the mean while, I’m gonna continue to beat this bitch and GET ‘ER DONE!

Anyway…the list of those to thank is long…but I had to mention the few who have really helped me out the most (and by the most I mean like woah crazy amounts of help, love and support). Ya’ll rock and I look forward to giving back to everyone just what they have given to me and more.

Post card for the show coming tomorrow: in the meanwhile, *the date* is: April 23rd @5PM at 1104  S Wabash, 2nd floor – keep that in mind.

THESIS MOTHA FUCKING SHOW OPENS!!!! Be there, or be s q u a r e !

YAAAAAAHHHHHOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!

By next Friday, I’ll be a very very VERY happy camper! WOOT!

Ciao!